It leads me to ask some difficult questions. Have we ever posted to a list (or sent mail or called someone in real life) from an imbalanced emotional need for love that the community or the person could not fill? Have we ever put someone in the position of being the only source of love that we had, thereby putting the relationship out of balance? I've done both. As I pursue flight, well, flight is just the most incredible thing. If you don't have your wings balanced, you fall. If you don't have your emotions balanced, you fall. If you agressively pursue ambitious achievement goals or your own ego, you fall. If you look down, you crash. There is a picture of my favorite pilot here, George, flying on the beach at sunset. The reason you feel soul when he flies is because he has found the philosophical balance between belief and his knowledge of the wind. I want to be like George. I want to find the thousand different balances in my life and straddle them as perfectly as he flies his glider because then the wind will take me beyond the horizon, too.