I don’t operate often. When I do,
persons take note.
Nurses look amazed. They pale.
The patient is brought back to life, or so.
The reason I don’t do this move (I quote)
is: I have a living to fail—

because of my wife and son—to keep from earning.
—Mr Bones, I sees that.
They for these operations thanks you, what?
not one pays you. —Right.
You have seldom been so understanding.
Now there is further a difficulty with the light:

I am obliged to perform in complete darkness
operations of great delicacy
on myself.
—Mr Bones, you terrifies me.
No wonder they don’t pay you. Will you die?
                    friend, I succeeded. Later.

John Berryman, 77 Dream Songs 67