The gift of giving myself has been taken away. If I offer myself, I offer death. Always, till my dying day. When I walk down the street and the ragazzi look at me, I’m reminded how all the while I’m death. Come close enough to me, once, twice or a hundred times and, supposing I love you, you will die. Not if you use a condom, they say. With a condom there’s latex rubber between you and your death, and latex rubber between you and me. Latex solitude. Latex solitude for ever and ever. Nothing can touch any more.

Ninon, in John Berger, To the Wedding