I want to be a good employee, I want to make good choices. But how can I tell if I’m following the program correctly? Some actions can have consequences that won’t become apparent until a time so far off I can’t begin to grasp it. Am I supposed to carry on with my job knowing that what I’m doing potentially works against the program? Or am I so pervaded by the program that I’m bound to act in accordance with it, no matter what? Am I the program’s hand? Still, update errors do occur, we all know it. It can’t be in the program’s interests. If I carry out an action that unbeknown to me is counteractive to the program’s momentum, I can do nothing but hate myself for it. But since I have no way of knowing whether an action in any given instance is antiprogrammatic, how am I to know if I’m to hate myself or not? Should I hate myself anyway? Where can I get an overview of what actions run contrary to the will of the program? Who do I go to for forgiveness? Is there an application procedure? I’d like to request some material concerning which actions require forgiveness. Does a thought count? A sufficiently negative thought? For instance, I might start thinking you’re not infallible, that you might be prone to error, but then I feel angry with myself and tell me it must be me there’s something wrong with. Why do I have all these thoughts if the job I’m doing is mainly technical? Why do I have these thoughts if the reason I’m here is primarily to increase production? From what perspective are these thoughts productive?

Olga Ravn, The Employees