March 20

My liver is enlarged again.  I’m weak as a kitten.  The FOLFIRI seems to have failed.  We’re going to Hospice.  A nurse is coming tomorrow morning to discuss options.

I’m not surprised. I’ve felt myself slipping the last couple of weeks.  In part, I’m relieved:  No more infusions, pumps, and so on– but we know that the tumor is very aggressive, so I have no idea how much time I’m likely to have.

At the moment I have no pain, but my entire abdominal cavity feels uncomfortable in a stomach-achy way.  Still, no pain is good.  One day at a time.  Happy Thanksgiving.

14 thoughts on “March 20

  1. You’re both in our thoughts, our hearts and our prayers. Sending healing karma and extra love your way. Ron, Chris, Aunt Sel

  2. Thinking of you now and always with much love . Glad we were able to spend time with you when you were in Florida.

  3. Dear Mara- I first got to your blog in October through Elaine Decker’s posting. We were all at Brown together.Both as a physician and fellow human being, I have been touched by your grace in the face of terminal illness. The love you share with your Sweetie, family and friends has come shining through, and your ability to make everyday life seem meaningful is extraordinary. You are in my heart.

  4. Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Your blog has been inspiring; you are a strong woman filled with love. Peace and love ME

  5. So sad to hear this. I’m thankful for and miss your thoughtful & fun presence in the usual places.

    Sending best prayers & good thoughts I can think of.

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